“Music fills in the
gaps that you left behind”
I pondered upon this thought just as I was about to write
this article. I was reading some quotes on love and relationships and a few of
them were very touching and so I stumbled upon the loneliness that I often
manage to hide from the world and mostly from myself. Whenever though I touch
that feeling it is very painful. You tend to reflect on life and what your
purpose is, what you’re doing here, who is made for you, why you haven’t had
someone who just loves you with all their heart yet you have been that someone
for someone; and the absence of some of the answers to such questions
devastates me. I read a quote on the notice board of my high school ‘don’t be too serious about life; no one gets
out alive anyways’. I just wasn’t made for this quote. I take life
seriously and I love reflecting upon issues that are otherwise not seen. That’s
me yes!!
So, um finally, I have been granted my major wish/prayer;
move out of Uganda. I finally have a job that takes me out of here, but am I
happy? Of course I am because this is what I wanted but again I ask, am I
happy? One of the saddest things for me is to see my mother weep; it’s
intolerable. She is very happy for me and the opportunity that I have but a
mother’s heart cannot bear that her only son is going away even though it is
only a flights distance…yes, I have sort of began measuring distance in terms
of flights because I am going to travel the entire world according to my mother
and I will like to believe that. So yeah, just a flight away but too far
indeed. My dad is one of the strongest characters I have met in my life but the
last time I went far, he too shed tears on departure; a moment quite close to
my heart. I will definitely miss them and there is no doubt about that but this
step is necessary because life is quite practical unlike a lot of people today.
I keep repeating this quote but it is so true and close to me: “…and there are people we can’t live without
but must learn to let go.”
So I have written all this but what I really had thought was
how music fills in the gaps in my life. Just as a song brings back memories,
some take my mind away from darkness into light or in simple terms, distract me
away from my memories.
I end with a quote that left me pondering, wondering and in thoughts:
"The person who cares least in the relationship has the most control."
Cheers!
Peace!
Champ!
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