Love of my life :')

"There are some days when I'm flying that I just look out of the window and I feel like I'm the luckiest guy in the world." - Ron Levitz, Air Tran Pilot

"Flying has changed after 9-11 but at the end of the day, it definitely beats sitting in an office doing a 9 to 5. ... I know that this is where I need to be." - Trina Holden, Flight attendant, Air Tran & Continental Airlines


I was reading this article about 'a day at Atlanta International Airport' on the CNN website and I was touched and had goosebumps. Aviation has always been my passionate field and it makes me feel alive. When I see a plane pass by, I stand still and see it as far as I can or when I stand near a runway in sight and see a plane touch the earth or kiss the skies, it gives me a feeling I can not put to words. In the article, Ron Levitz (who I quoted above) has a similar story as mine, only that he got the dream of flying and I haven't. He said he loves flying and always wanted to do that...trust me, I would love to spend the rest of my life on airplane than on the ground. I know where I want to be, where I need to be and its only a matter of time, prayers, patience and hard work that I get there, Insha'Allah!!! Planes are my first love, and you know what they say about first love right? 

* A piece of advise. If you are emotionally charged and are writing, DO NOT listen to music or do something else like talk to someone besides writing because it takes the feel and mood away (as it sort of did to me) * 

So coming back to the article I read, it really touched me because the article talked about how different people's lives are and an airport is the best place to see this mixture...

• A cleaner cleaning the toilets who people see with less respect and think how much better they are not realizing how dependent they are on that cleaner, a duty free shop assistant who answers to every customer who asks a question frustratingly knowing that not every customer buys the product ( some people like me are just asking because they love it but know they can't buy but want to have the feel of the item ).
• A steward and air hostess seated in a nice restaurant in their uniforms having coffee smiling at each other and who seem to be the happiest people on earth ( some people like me who love to read people may even say 'oh having beautiful women by your side comes with the job :p). 
• People see a pilot walking by with shoulders raised in pride because of all the respect and dignity that he deserves because of the job not realizing he is the same guy who isn't any less than like a soldier or in fact more than a soldier because he attempts to defeat death every single day; and in his scenario, death of all other people he is flying with who are his responsibility.
• A certain someone with a weird or rather unique dressing style like mine (literally I mean mine..shorts, an easy going t-shirt or even sleeveless will do and slippers) with headsets around lip singing the song he is listening to and roaming with a camera in hand not bothered about what people think yet he knows they think he must be an idiot believing that he is doing the right thing by being himself and that makes him cool (well being myself is indeed definitely cool because today, I see more masks than faces), yet what these people don't know is that this 'idiot' also has a heart that feels pain, and that we all fight pain in different manners.
• A someone seated quietly in one part of the airport wandering and looking at the planes ahead endlessly; what people do not know is that a memory screen (that is only seen to that person) is rolling right now and the airport, that moment has stood still and the only thing that is visible is that screen. A screen that reminds of moments that are gone forever but not lost because they are deeply stored in the heart and this 'quiet someone' is going to attend the funeral of that person (who featured on the memory screen), but doesn't shed a tear but is broken, in fact shattered inside...
• A young girl, carrying her barbie doll in her arms and hugging it (as if it were real) and who is excited about travelling, probably its her first time on a plane. She keeps telling the barbie about her travel so far, at one point even points the barbie in the direction of the planes and points her finger to it saying 'that is our plane'. The neighbor (not the parents) may randomly smile thinking of their childhood days or another may say to themselves 'why can't adults just be happy for no reason like this young kid is'.
• A business man who travels so often that it is difficult to count now, seated in one place in a suit and tie (yes that is right, he needs to show the world he is different and that he is from a world that thinks dressing matters most and that they are more important or talented than that 'weird looking kid in shorts', which isn't true at all.) doesn't care and bother about what is going around and is on the laptop or tab checking the world news or business trends or auditor's reports, basically working. What most of such people do not realize is life is about loving family, especially those who makes us happy and alive (TRUST ME..I HAVE REALIZED THIS AFTER COMING TO MAURITIUS..I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY I GO BACK AND HUG MY PARENTS..I JUST CAN'T WAIT)!!! Appreciating life, people in life, loving them and showing the love is the most important thing besides faith and ethics in one's life.

So indeed an airport has a lot to say... "Just takes an eye to read and a heart to understand/feel" - this happens to be my answer to the question 'how did you read me?'..So yeah I guess this is all that I can write..I hope you enjoyed reading, felt emotions with which I wrote this and the next time you are at an airport, remember, we all have a different story and each deserves respect, even the cleaner of the toilet. 

"Humanity isn't in loving those who are superior but those who society thinks are worthless, but indeed, no one is worthless"

Cheers,

Champ!

Chote bhaiya :')

'A child can teach an adult three things:
To be happy for no reason,
To always be curious, and,
To fight tirelessly for something' - Paulo Coelho

I was just chatting with a friend and she said 'you have beautiful pictures. That is what is great about you. You have so many pictures that each time you miss something, you can go have a look at all your pictures and you'll do a leap in the past and relive each and every moment again.' So here here is a picture from the past with someone I love beyond imagination. He is my youngest cousin and he lives Karachi. He is 6 years old. He is the sole reason I wanna fly there. I just miss and love him so much and this article is just for him!

I was in Karachi a few months back and he just made my trip worth it. Whenever I would have a rough day perhaps, he would come and hug me so tight and tickle me and make me forget every single tension of life.
When we went out for dinner or anywhere, he would always ask me which car I was going to go in and he would just grab my hand, hold it and say 'I am going with Rahim bhai'. Awww those were moments of life I can't ever forget. :')

Maa-Paa, cousins are going Karachi in a couple of weeks time and I am in Mauritius and I just went to Karachi so I can't go. The feeling is one of, um can't even describe but indeed hurting, but I guess in life, we must adapt to such events where we do not get what we want. I think of the feeling if I was going, just how happy and on what cloud I would be!! :')

I feel mixed emotions right now as I think of him, cousins going and me not going. It is happiness of the past and a bit of pain of the future. I think I will try not to think of it much!

So I finish this article, I'd like to say remember to live life in every moment because tomorrow, will not be the same; it might be better but again, it might be less better than today! so live life and every moment of today!

Cheers,
Champ!

It was my dream..perhaps still is!!

Indeed, lucky are those who realize their dreams because it is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world to be doing what you have always wanted to do. Those who do not get to do what they dream of doing know the value of that feeling. 
Walt Disney said "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them". I tend to disagree. ALL our dreams can't come true otherwise life or this earth would be paradise, isn't it? At times it takes more than courage to make a dream come to reality and fate plays a huge role in restraining us from making our dream come to reality, like financial issues, parents disagreeing, one's unconditional loving ability, disabilities, accidents and many issues. I may have all the courage in the world to go in pursuit of my dreams but if I don't have the money to do it, how am I going to do it? by working, yeah right. Not like I will earn 50,000 dollars and become a pilot or pray overtime and get my natural eyesight back to life. I guess at some point in our lives, we all realize what is meant to be for us and what isn't. That does not at all mean that we should stop dreaming because dreams pave the way forward for us. They give us reason to live and that my friend, is the most important thing in life..a reason to live.
As far as my dream to be a pilot goes, I guess, it was my dream, perhaps still is, but isn't meant for me!

I was 5 when I looked up the sky and told my dad 'I will be a pilot'. I had the intensity and power in my heart for that statement since the day I said it until a couple of years back. It took me a long time to distinguish between a dream and what He has written for me. It is not that I do not have faith in Him to give me my dreams but simply that now I understand His desires for me are way better than mine for myself. It is still with faith that I hope to do what I always wanted to do..'fly'..Albert Einstein said "God always takes the simplest way". I would like to believe that and move forward. I think we must all realize our dreams can not all be realized but we must try our best to get the ones we can. I re-call one of my seniors in high school once telling me when I was in year 9 and he was in year 13 (senior 6): 'as you move forward in life, you will get to know that with time our perceptions about our dreams change; and not only our perceptions but our dreams change too, so remember to be adaptive, ready to accept and positive towards change'. 

My desire right now is to work in the tourism industry and I wish I get that..I wish I at least get that..with a deep thought and pain did I say that statement..
Whenever I see a plane, the passion in me awakens and I feel alive. I love planes because just like them, I feel I am made to fly!!

"I gave in, and admitted that God was God" - C.S Lewis

Cheers,
Champ!

Vacuum

‘Vacuum’... This is the kind of feeling I have had from the past 2 days! At times life becomes so quiet inside us that everything on the outside no longer reaches us…we tend to love this quietness at the start because on the outside world it is all noisy but then after some time, this silence becomes loneliness and we feel left out or abandoned. It is as if we enter a different world of ours where it’s just us; we feel both sad and happy; we have regrets and everything to cherish for; it is in such moments that we are stripped of our to-show-the-world face into which we are just as a person, what we are as a person. I am someone who does what his heart wants but in such moments, it is when we truly do what we want to do such as take a long walk or write our blog or inbox a long lost buddy who meant something to us but today doesn’t…it is due to such moments that we awaken ourselves in a world full of hidden, dual faces and dead souls!!!

Writing our journal, listening to music, reading a book about who we are as a person just makes so much more sense right now than Facebook or clubbing or watching a movie…well to me, these tiny little things have always made sense but in such times it makes even more sense.

I was at a coffee place last night writing my journal as I had my coffee and I had this thought: freedom or having someone? The one thing that is bound to happen with relationships is that you’re freedom is sacrificed; whether you like it or not. Everyone so-called ‘deep in love’ is compromising somewhere with their loved one to stay with them; not to lose them…this may mean something they don’t like about their loved one or something they want to do but can’t because of the commitment, and so I was thinking, can we live happily even without having that someone special? That someone who’s a spark in our lives, who lights the fire of love in our hearts to avoid darkness in our lives? I will be honest here, I have seen both sides of this question and when I weigh it, I can only say that, love, ‘true love’ only  comes once in our lives where happiness just comes to us…where we don’t fake smiles or take long lonely walks under the rain to hide tears because there are no tears but once that love leaves us, what remains is a ‘silent heart’ full of emotions and feelings that may never be expressed enough to let go…feelings that get buried deep down inside us…feelings that help us lead a new life if we wish to!!

Those of us in today’s world, who have someone with us, let us ask ourselves, is it really love? Do I love the person I am going out with or am I just compromising because their body is more attractive than their soul? Am I seeing this someone because my friends are seeing someone and I don’t want to be left out? Am I afraid to tell this person ‘I do not love you’ because I may break a heart or I will no longer share a bed with them? I believe honesty is the one ethic if adapted by everyone, we can re-paint white on those areas made by Allah as white where we have spilled black. If you love someone, tell them you have that feel for them but if you fall out of it for any reason, also tell them that. Being honest with someone may hurt them yes, but you will have done a lot of good for your own soul. If you are with someone because you like sleeping with them, then don’t say I love you…just say I love to “f” [pardon the language] you because that is the truth. Many people today just ridiculously use the word love for where love has no essence. That brings me to a question on one of the blog I read…‘do we know what love means?’ so today let us ask ourselves, for everything we say love, do we really love them?

Whoa…what was this article meant to be and what has it turned out to be, but as you all know, I simply keep writing what my heart feels. So I would like to conclude with a question for all those who say they want truth from everyone around them; ‘can you handle the truth?’ I think everyone wants the truth from each other but may not have the ability to take it. If I tell you ‘I no longer love you’, do you have the courage in you to take it? I have seen many who just don’t have what it takes to handle truth, because we all want to hear what we want to hear instead of what is actually the reality. So to everyone who reads this blog (I keep repeating this… ‘I hope at least I have someone who reads’), it is good to say you want the truth but then also have the courage to accept it because truth is my friends, the truth is indeed bitter and we all love chocolate :p!!!

“In life one has to be able to laugh, and even though we are looking at some difficult times ahead, we must look at them with courage, hope and faith” – His Highness the Aga Khan IV