The Eye that Reads!

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.”  - Jodi Picoult

Have you ever looked at someone in a public place and thought to yourself ‘this person is this, this and that’? Have you ever tried to see through the first layer that people are showing to the world? Have you ever tried to read someone; not judge but read? To my surprise, I think what started for me as something I would do once in a while, I now do it with love and passion. During a recent conversation with someone, she said “when you have so much loneliness in your heart such that you are completely alone even when you’re amongst people, I guess you learn to see through people easily”. I couldn’t agree more!!
“I am so used to the pain that when I don’t get pain now, it hurts” – Ahmed Faraz. Loneliness isn’t about being alone is a lone place, sometimes you can be surrounded by the world and still be lonely as ever; and as painful as it is, no one will ever know.

I do not like places that are very crowded because they make me feel what my heart hides otherwise – solitude. The one thing that I love to do when I go to public places is I love to read people. I choose a place from where I can see everyone or a majority of people, my instinct selects the person I intend to read and I observe. I know this sounds weird, awkward and honestly I may be perceived as weird I guess but well, the heart does what it wants! I do get it right a lot of the times and I wonder how but when you live in a vacuum, you develop an eye to see through people. It doesn’t take me long to discover who is how and I am honestly so glad about this. The one benefit to me too is that people don’t know that I am trying to read them and so they keep behaving the way they would.

So I guess today, all I wanted to talk about is this reading of people. I do not know if I made any sense but hey, it is to let go of my thoughts and feelings as to why I write. I appreciate all those who do read my blog once in a while.

This article could have been written a lot better but when I sat to write it, I couldn’t complete it and now that I am completing it, I am not in that flow of heart as I was that day – so the lesson to take it, when the heart wants me to write something, I should go on and complete it.

Peace!

Champ!