Destiny...Our Choice

"I envy birds..they fly and have the guts to choose their destiny"

“Defeat is a choice, so is victory. Thus we have the power of choice”

I quote these particular lines of a paragraph I read in an article I was reading this morning. Further ahead in the article was a line ‘only you can turn yourself around…if you really want’. I kept pondering all morning, we all want and desire something or someone right? “Leave everyone else, what do you want?” my heart screamed to me. For someone like me, answers to such questions are not very hard to get because I keep talking to myself and seeking answers about my life. It is a very powerful thing you know – talking to oneself. Many people keep asking, ‘where is The Almighty?’ Well, the answer is very simple… He is in your heart, in yourself but we look everywhere, except there! We look for Him in the riches of the wealthy, in the health of the healthy, in the happiness of the joyful ones but He resides in the hands of a laborer, in the thirst of the thirsty, in the prayers of a believer, in the sweat of the tired, in the tears of the broken, in a loving heart…well, that is where He is!!

So yes, we all have ambitions and dreams but whether we chase them, is totally upon us. I am pretty unsure about my career because there is so much that I could do but there is only so much that I can; and I am told that I have to let go of something, but am I willing to do that? I know my greatest ambition and passion is to travel and take photos but at the same time, I have to think about my family, my desire to serve the community and build a name; all different paths with different outcomes so yes, you can say I am at crossroads. My faith in Him is powerful enough that my solution may sound absurd to many, but reality is, faith is a very unique thing to each of us and what is absurd to someone, makes absolute sense to someone else; say like an artist who throws various colors in different directions on the canvas, to a layman, it may seem he is doing nothing but the eyes of the artist know what is going on and how beautiful this messed up, jumbled up colors will look. He knows what is best for me and so He will never let me go on a path that isn’t meant for me and so I keep trying with equal efforts for the paths I want to be on and see where life takes me. Some people have been critical to me about this approach but I tell myself why care on someone’s words when they mean near to nothing. My family especially my parents respect my decisions and that is sufficient and good enough for me rather than these other people.

I am definitely going to make a change in my life in terms of my work place. I have always believed if something is making you unhappy whether be a habit or working with someone, change it and I have come to realize that working with some people is causing me stress therefore I will make sure I eliminate them from my life. I am not someone who wants to make work his life and evading my private time is a source of great displeasure for me and I am not going to allow anyone to do that. I am also sure that when I leave, the effect will be felt although now it isn’t seen. You value something/someone when you lose it; I am sure they will too!
I am trying my best to look for something and I do hope and pray, I get it sooner. People are afraid of change but I am willing to look for that change which will make me happier. I think these past 10 odd months have taught me a lot and I have improved professionally but I am not going to allow myself to be unhappy on the name of ‘professional development’. I know some or a lot of people will disagree and say ‘hard work is everywhere’. I have never been afraid of hard work but I want to work with the people who are right for me. I end with what I started… ‘…we have the power of choice’.

Cheers!

Peace!

Champ!